Sleeping method breathing 4-7-8 didn't work because I didn't do it long enough to work. I ended up buying a Zzz Quill type thing and drank that to fall asleep. Woke up around 8:40am, took an hour long survey for $6 then cleaned my room for when my friend comes over on Friday.
Me and my artist friend didn't really talk about the book much but watched videos until we went to m other friend's house instead of my best friend's since it was closer. We all hung out and dissed our exs. Ate a ham dinner for our friend-thanksgiving, then had chocolate pie then her mom took us all home, me being dropped off first cause we live in the same town.
I messaged them "Q-Q I miss you guys already" in a group chat then my other friend siad "Duuuuuuude" and my best friend said "Bruuuuh Don't worry Friday will be hecka" (I think he meant "hella"). Then I immediately started thinking about if they ever talked about me behind my back. I mean I know they do. There's no way they wouldn't. I know I'm not perfect and I know I'm annoying. I don't mean to be but I just can't help it.
When I came home my mood was kinda killed when I said I didn't wanna 'hang out' with my parents and watch SNL they asked if I was tired and I said yeah. Then mom said to go to bed so I can get up in the morning and I said I wasn't going to bed at 9:30. Then my dad said "you can't keep relying on that stuff." (Meaning the Zzz quill) and I hadn't even mentioned it, or touched it. It's non-habit forming.
I don't wanna be like an angsty teenage and say "my parents don't understand me" but they really don't. I recently posted my personality type but if I tried to explain it to them my dad would just laugh and just think it's an excuse to be lazy or something.
Oh, I also found a very relaxing website http://weavesilk.com/ Where I make backgrounds/wallpapers. Here's one I made:
Anyway, enough rambling, I really can't wait for Friday still for just 1-on-1 time with my best friend.
Until then,
An Introvert
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